Trapped in my own life

All my life I've felt like I was going to do something really awesome - something that would change the world in some way... maybe even several things.

I still feel that sometimes, but recently I feel it less and less. I feel like my life is stuck in a cycle and no matter what I do I always end up in the same fucking situation. Like I said to someone recently - the urge to give up and conform has been quite strong of late. I've got a potential contracting position beginning of next year (2008) in *gag* .NET, but I'd have to go in to offices in a shirt and tie (and obviously pants), and apparently I'd have to shave the beard.

I think a part of me would die when that happens. I'd be able to become a property owner, buy transport, be sure of where the next month's income is coming from, but I would feel imprisoned. Trapped. Kinda like how I feel at present. So what's the difference?